Up, Down and All Around

Good Vibrations

It surprises me to realize this week just how much I am influenced by the moods of specific people around me.

I've always thought of myself as being somewhat self-reliant and independent in both thought and emotions. Sure, I get worked up and upset about things just like everyone else, but I always thought that my "hot buttons" were my own, and that how other people felt at any point in time had little effect on how I felt on any given day.

I've come to realize, though, that there are a handful of people who matter so much to me that, without them being aware of it, they exert such a potent influence on my own mood. And corollary to that thought is yet another realization -- that life can be toxic and draining when a person who exerts that much influence on you is going through their own roller coaster ride... and you are a reluctant passenger being swept along with them.

Having said all that, I'm thankful that I've been getting nothing but good vibes today. For the first time in days, I can feel the knots on the back of my neck gradually loosening. It literally feels like a pressing weight has been lifted off of my mind, and -- dare I say it? -- my soul.

Considering how bleak yesterday was, the timing could not have been better. And as repetitive as this may sound, I am suddenly hopeful again.

11 weeks to go...

Tags: Personal

Posted by CF at 8:00 PM