Up, Down and All Around

In the doldrums

These days, I find myself going through the motions a lot, like an automaton of some kind. My heart's really not into what I'm doing, and it takes a lot of effort to focus and get things done.

I'm constantly searching for something sinfully sweet or unbelievably salty to eat. I'm drinking coffee like there's no tomorrow. I'm eating more than I normally do. And despite all that, I seem to be sleeping more than 12 hours a day.

Hay... all the classic signs of depression are staring me in the face.

I guess it's a result of the past month. March has been so stressful emotionally. I feel like my morale and psyche keep getting hit anew each morning, before I've even had a chance to recover from the injuries of the previous day.

I guess it would be tolerable if I knew this period would be coming to an end soon. I think what really depresses me is the thought that I have nothing better to look forward to in the next few months beyond more repeats of the past few weeks.

With no obvious solution in sight, I think I'll hit the treadmill again this afternoon. Maybe some exercise-induced endorphin production will help improve my mood.

Tags: Personal

Posted by CF at 12:45 PM