Up, Down and All Around

Inadequacies

I'm so tired of crying everytime I feel inadequate.

I wish there was some way I could stop myself from degenerating into that old, pathetic stereotype of the crying female when I'm confronted by a stressful situation.

By the time I've calmed down and finished mopping up my eyes, I can't help but be mad at myself for letting the simplest situations get to me.

I've thought about it a lot, and I've come to the conclusion that I'm simply too proud as a person -- consequently, I hate to be embarrassed by situations. I have difficulty laughing at my own silliness, much less my own mistakes. I take myself too seriously.

So when I find myself in a situation where I feel useless or inadequate or hopelessly pathetic, the tears just well up so easily.

If there was some way I could re-program myself and get rid of all this emotional baggage, I'd grab it with both hands.

Hay... I think I will turn in to bed early tonight. My eyes still hurt.

Tags: Personal

Posted by CF at 8:45 PM